New Title to my Blog!!

Okay so I have not written in a long, long time.  I was actually inspired to write something again after reading my Fiancee's blog.  He posts on his blog more frequently then I post on mine and I am the writer of the couple, lol.

Well, since I have last written, lots of things have changed in my life.  Hence, the new title.  For the past few weeks, I have struggled with wondering how I will get through some of the turmoil of life altering changes.  That's when I realized that I can because God can.

It's a funny thing how you seem to do better when you stop worrying about how to get things done and just trust God to get you through.

Now, does this mean that I am perfect and have mastered the art of doing all things through Christ who strengthens me?  No.  I still try and do things my way most of the time, because I am still learning to be the college student that could (through Christ).  It's so easy for me to get discouraged by earthly things.  For example, I got engaged on February 11th.  Now I have to figure out how to plan a wedding without spending an arm and a leg.  A month after I got engaged, I got a huge doctor bill for 700$ and I have two more bills coming.  Georgia changed the HOPE scholarship so I went from owing only $500 dollars per semester to owing more like $1200.  My dad lost his night job (which was a part time and paying him fairly well).  So all these things happened last month.  Until the third week of March, I had been so excited being engaged.  I wasn't feeling anxious or depressed, despite being diagnosed with Asthma and finding out I have a severe dust/dust mite allergy.  Everything was starting to make sense and I was starting to feel more confident in myself.

Then those changes came.  The anxiety got a little worse.  I started to hyper-focus on the little things that don't matter (that's the OCD coming out) and worry about my bank account falling below a certain number.  I worried about what I would do if I had to buy new clothes or if my computer broke.  How would I pay for everything?  How was I going to pay for a wedding now, much less move out on my own?  How would Chris and I pay for my medication?

Well, God works in mysterious ways.

My dad just got a check for over $2000 dollars and has 15 laptops being fed-exed to the house.  He got a contract job restoring laptops.  He has a couple of people interested in him and he could get these jobs every other month or so.  Chris (my fiancee) is going to help him and make 15 bucks an hour!!  I found out that my inhalers and my singulair (asthma pills) are free on my current insurance plan and I found a health plan for Chris and I to enroll in who uses the same pharmacy provider as my parent's plans.  This could mean that I can receive similar benefits even when I change insurance companies (at least that's what the pharmacy insurers told me).  We'll see.  Also, I am taking four classes this summer because the HOPE benefits don't change until fall 2011.  I will only owe around $350 for my summer semester.  My doctor was able to set me up on a payment plan to pay off my bills and I am able to use the doctor's at KSU clinic for my check-ups and to get refills of my maintenance drugs (and it doesn't cost anything to see those doctors cause I'm a student!!).

As far as wedding stuff goes, I got a dress at an unbelievably good price and I am toying with the idea of wearing sparkly silver Tom's for the reception!  I have a wonderful church where I want to have the ceremony and the reception and a great member of the church who caters.  Also, one of my best friends is creating the cake!  It is going to be delicious.  Now all I really have to do is focus on how I want to decorate and finding a good (and fairly priced) photographer.  If any of my readers know one, please let me know!!

So that's my post.  I am not too concerned about how I will make it through the day anymore because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!  And anytime I forget that, He is there to pick me back up and help me start anew.  Gotta love God's grace!!

Be Blessed,
Julia